another quote from a cup at work.

The Way I See It #23

Chances are you are scared of
fictions. Chances are you are only
fleetingly happy. Chances are you
know much less than you think
you do. Chances are you feel a
little guilty. Chances are you want
people to lie to you. Perhaps the
answer lies on the side of a
coffee cup. You are lost.

--David Cross

This one totally caught my attention and I had to put it in my collection of quotes I like. Hmm...there is an idea that I am sure tons of others have thought of...their own favorite quote book. =Þ

So today is Memorial Day, the tail end of it. Worked from open to abouts 1:15pm today. Slow business, but got some cleaning done...like underneath the back sink and on my knees cleaning. Dang those mocha stains that didn't get off the wall. Anywho.

Having a hard time remebering what I wanted to write about (listening to Patsy Cline, definitely in my top ten fave artists list). "...well I'm moving along, I gotta be free, I'll find a new love, wherever I'll be, but my old love is gone, I'm moving on, I'm a leaving town today..."

Speaking of moving on. Talked with Jenny tonight about some things that have been/are on my mind and had a good talk. For me it was a good talk, she listened to what I had to say and tried to offer some advice, but couldn't be totally objective about the situation, which is very understandable.

So what else did I do today...um...oh yeah. Dave came through the drive through today (didn't ask for you Christina, sorry =Þ) and said that I should come over after work and check out the house. So I did just that. I called Rebecca to see if she was available to come with me. Anywho, it seems like it is going to be a really cute house. Had a good time talking with Dave and Roberta and petting their golden retriever Chance. Seems that things will be rolling forward soon with the house which is very exciting! =)

Time out! So I am still listening to Patsy Cline and I am of course singing along like a krazy person and it just makes me wish I could sing, and like actually sound decent=Þ Ah well. Oh and also, I think Hillary knows this, but not too long ago Heather at work said that one of her musical guilty pleasures is Celine Dion and that she thinks she has the voice of an angel...which she does have a very powerful voice, but I think Alison Krauss also has the voice of an angel. Like a lot of times when I am listening to her voice, I start off singing along and I stop singing because I am just amazed by how lovely her voice is. That sounds really lame and cheesy, but there it is. It is really weird to hear voice when she is talking v. her voice when she is singing. Just an observation.

What else. Ah yes, the Weezer Listening Party was fun. I enjoyed everyone who came over and hope they felt the same way. Hope those pins come in soon so I can pass them out!

Anywho, this blog is quite long. But I will leave you with the lyrics to one of my fave songs by The Vogues (well known cover by Petula Clark) which is also a song that I hope will in a way sum up the feelings I have someday when I meet THE one;)

You're the One

Every time we meet, everything is sweet
Oh, you're so tender, I must surrender
My love is your love, now and forever

(Chorus:)
You're the one that I long to kiss
Baby, you're the one that I really miss (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You're the one that I'm dreamin' of
Baby, you're the one that I love

Keep me in your heart, never let us part
Ooh never leave me, please don't deceive me
I want you only, you must believe me

(Chorus)

I adore you and no one before you could make me feel this way, yeah
Since I met you I just can't forget you, I love you more each day
yeah yeah yeah yeah!

(instrumental break) =D

There may be some tears through the comin' years
Ooh all the while I know you be smilin'
Your love will guide me through ev'ry mile, cause...

(Chorus 2x)

hmm...

Dunno what to title this blog. All I wanted to write was that I had a real nice time hanging out with Hillary and Mary (aka Millary and Hary, heh) and their friends Matt and Aaron. Like it was a real good time, I felt really welcome and we talked about a lot of good things. However the beginning of my time there was a little on the cheesy side, like perhaps bordering on too cheesy (come on Matt, you were doing things that were intended for a fourth grade crowd, so hopefully no hard feelings from not wanting to continue with the great skits). But after all that, it was really good. And Hillary and I got to ask each other some fun questions, but it seems that we could hang out together sometime and perhaps dig into some deeper questions then and have a good time as well. (I think you know what question(s) I mean). Also, just wanted to say thanks Hillary for including me in the list of ppl that you would go to if you were in a crisis;)

Just got done eating Taco Bell, not feeling so hot. Should have only got like one taco.

Anywho, so yeah, I was thinking of who I have crushes on that I may have forgotten on one of my past blogs and yeah, I totally forgot Ewan McGregor. He's a babe. I remember I was really into him like the past two-three years ago. He hit a high peak back then. However he has two children and a lovely wife that I am sure he is very happy with and whom I hope he will be with forever, heh. I also noticed something in the ppl I like. It seems that my crushes tend to be on older/married men. Like single or married, they are in like their late 20's early to mid-thirties. Like sure I have crushes on ppl my age, but most ones I point out anymore are at least five years my senior. Not that it really matters, as long as I find the one guy that will be THE one, and meet my top five way important qualities that I am looking for in the guy I want to marry. (which I am still working out...hope to have a list soon Hillary).

Oh! Good news, tickets have been purchased for Tegan and Sara in OH this July. Hoping some Weezer tickets will be in my future as well as Ben Folds/Rufus Wainwright. Bad news too, the Boston trip has been postponed. I will not 'cancel' it. I still want to go. But I was thinking today, perhaps I should go next spring...

All for now!

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...

Yes, I saw the long awaited Star Wars E III: Revenge of the Sith. I must say that it was everything I had hoped it would be and perhaps a little more. Like this sounds so lame, but yesterday when I was talking to a few ppl about seeing it I said, I have a feeling that I am going to cry at the show. We all knew that Anakin was turning to the dark side (and if you didn't then I don't know where you have been for like the last twenty some years, heh) but it really was a sad situation. I think I remember three or four times throughout the film that made tears gather in my eyes, but there were not any streaming tears down the face (I think those were only reserved for Padmé). Anywho. It is prob the best out of EI and EII. The fight scenes were great as well. I do not want to ruin the film for anyone who has not seen it, but there is a pretty bitchin light saber scene btw Obi-Wan and General Grievous. And also, I have always loved Yoda, but seeing this installment also reminded me of how much I love R2D2. I forgot how witty of a little robot he is and how quick he is to react and such. There are some pretty good scenes with him as well.

I did not see too many viewers in costume last night, a few in capes, and a few 14 yr olds with Darth Vader masks. There was one guy in our theatre that I felt bad for. Like he stood up during the previews and was like, 'let's all sing a song, screw the previews' and like he had it coming that ppl were going to rip on him and make fun of him (I can still hear James shouting "Down in Front!!"), but it didn't call for anyone shouting, "Hey, queer sit down". Made me kinda mad, so I just turned around and gave a dirty Asian glare at him. We pretty much took up the whole row of seats, James, me, Eric, Kunal, Rob, Andrew, Charlotte, Brian, Brent and like four or five others whom I did not know their names. The 'manager' for our theatre was like "This is a sold out show, so if there are any empty seats in between you please move in." There was no saving of seats. Which at this point there was an empty seat between Kunal and I because we were saving a seat for Rob while he went to the restroom. There was a list of things that he said he was going to do before the movie started, refilling popcorn, soda, and a few restroom activities to take care of. Point being, James said if the 'manager' lady said to move in, he was going to say "It's my bro's seat, he's taking a deuce!" So that Rob could have a walk of shame when he went to go to his seat. However, it didn't come to that. (Lucky Rob).

After the movie we chatted for a bit in the parking lot. Charlotte went home she was way tired, but the rest of us went to Steak 'n Shake (Rob, James, Kunal, Eric, Andrew, and I). It was a pretty funny time there. I swear getting them all together like that makes me laugh so freakin hard. Like last time I was around Kunal, it was freakin hilarious. It is too much to write about all the jokes that were made about random things, but the guys were pretty good at keeping up with each other as far as making ridiculously funny statements. Then we said our byes out in the parking lot. Poor Kunal had to drive back to Bloomington. He had to use his roommates car and had told him, he would have it back by like 3am...which I just laughed at him for cause the movie didn't start til after 12 and then the movie got out at like 2:30ish. Not quite sure how he was planning that one. Anywho.

All for now!

Here are a few little quotes that I really like. These are from the cups at work, part of "The Way I See It" collection.

# 30
The secret of attraction is to love
yourself. Attractive people judge
neither themselves nor others.
They are open to gestures of love.
They think about love, and
express their love in every action.
They know that love is not a mere
sentiment, but the ultimate truth
at the heart of the universe.

-- Deepak Chopra

#24

When I began writing, the words
that inspired me were these:
"A writer is someone who has written
today." If you want to be a writer,
what's stopping you?

-- J.A. Jance

#24 reminded me of something that Lisa (customer/writer) would say or probably has heard. She came in the other day and I meant to give her a cup that had that quote on it. Lisa is pretty encouraging in the writing thing, she points out that it is hard to get your writing out there, like in the sense of being comfortable that people are going to be reading what you have written. And she mentions that I should just set time aside each day to write. Even if it isn't much. She says that she gives herself a block of time to write each day.

And about #30, I really like the part about saying that attractive people judge neither themselves or others. Like I wish so much and try to not be judgemental about things. Like there is this really mean side of me that unfortunately people get to see of me, where I just say mean things. And I know I have the choice of saying it and being not very nice or just keeping it to myself and not letting myself get carried away with saying things that are mean or negative. It doesn't do anyone any good. Cause usually I just feel bad for having said whatever it is that I said and hurting someone in the progress. I really do wish that I could be a nicer person. Like I feel that it is one of the worst qualities about me. I am so not even close in any way of being perfect or being the best at anything and here I am finding myself wanting to knock others down who I feel need to be knocked down, whether it is egos or just certain personalities traits that ppl have that for some reason I am not good at tolerating. What gives me the right to be that way? It seems that everyone is the way they are for a reason, obviously we were all made differently for good reasons...not just created to annoy me in some way...that would be such a selfish way to look at things. But at the same time I get tired of hearing, "well that is just so-and-so for you". I feel like that statement is the lamest excuse for certain behaviors that really are unnacceptable. Behaviors such as plain being rude and/or mean to others. But then again, some ppl really are oblivious to how their actions affect others. Or either they are good at faking it. Oh well. I guess all I really need to be concerned with is trying to be the best person I can be and waking up everyday hoping to be better than I was the day before. Learn from past mistakes and try to make better decisions and help people out where I can and refrain from getting sucked into situations that I know aren't good and that in the end are just going to make me feel bad in any way, big or small.

COME ON!!!!

So I just got home from work, turned on my comp, opened IE and decide I want to surf the internet. My first big shock is that Reneé Zellweger has married Kenny Chesney (I love Reneé). And then I stroll down through my Favorites and check out Tegan and Sara's site cause I want to catch them this summer, so I keep checking for updates. And as many of you know, I wanted to see them in Chicago, but they were sold out immediately, like it was ridiculous, within the first half hour of the sale and I was very upset. So then later I found out Weezer was going to be in Chicago, too. Of course it was sold out cause I found out about it like a few weeks after tickets went on sale. Great Band, Small Venue = Sold Out Show. If you couldn't tell, like these are way way high priority concerts for me this summer. So anywho, I am on the tour section of Tegan and Sara's website and they have put more dates for June, and where are they? In London opening for...Weezer. I was like Holy Crap, you have Got to be kidding me. Oh how badly do I want to see both bands. So like today when I was at home before running errands and going to work, I was like, I have seriously got to go to Lollapalooza. I missed out on Coachella...but to be honest Coachella wasn't really an option, I was pretty low on cash, plus it was in Indio...not close at all. But Lollapalooza is in Chicago, and for $100 all the bands that are going to be there both days, it is a steal! So I am trying oh so hard to find a way to go (hopefully not alone) and to also get my summer vacation with Hillary on the road. *phew* I think I am done typing at a constant rate for now!

Oy...I hope I can figure a way to make this work...*fingers crossed for this summer*

Oh, and of course I must mention this...Christina got promoted to Assistant Store Manager. She got the official offer today. So yay! If you read this and see her, congratulate her!

All for now,
much love!

hmm...

Happy Mother's Day!

Geez, here I am listening to Stacy's Mom again! But I guess it's okay since it is Mother's Day? heh. Anywho. I am listening to it to hear the similarities to Rick Springfield's Jessie's Girl. yay for 80's music! And also the other day Eric stopped into work and we were talking about new music coming out and how we were excited for a bunch of new stuff. We got to talking about Gwen Stefani because the Banana song has been on the radio lately and he doesn't like that song. I don't think it is the best on the album, but I am not an authority on music (I am just a fan of music=D). But Eric was like, what was that one song...ya know, *humming it here*, that one that sounds like Hash Pipe. Oh yeah, What You Waiting for? And was like, yeah she totally ripped that off. So I listened to them the other day and ya, you can totally hear the similarities. But if you stop you can hear similarities in a lot of songs, so I am not going to try and argue that musician's are stealing others' arrangements, and what not. I guess I just like to give them a hard time when songs are super obvious that they sound like another song. It is intersting though that both Weezer (well more like Rivers) and it seems the same for Gwen these days, the fascination with Eastern Culture/Society. So there is something fun they have in common...similar sounding songs and a love of the Japanese. heh.

Anyways, what else? Not too much else. Gotta work later today...4ish and then that's about it for the day. I should do some laundry before I go! So I think that is my cue to end this blog now.

All for now,
Laters!

First things first, Christina has got to quit "mackin" with my door. So to all of you out there that read this, that is a rule that I will be laying down, no mackin with my door. I don't care who you are!

HA, anyways. Listening to Guero, Beck's latest cd. So far I must say that song three is my favorite, Girl. Oh, and I forgot to mention in my last blog, that I am excited about other new music, Coldplay, Weezer, Liz Phair later this fall, and Aimee Mann. I watched Aimee Mann last night on Leno, it was pretty good. I really like her music. And speaking of Weezer, I have already told some of you, but I got accepted to be on Weezer's first official street team...this is from part of the email I got -

Congratulations you have been accepted on to Official WeezerOnline-Only Street Team, J.O.N.A.S. - Jonas' Official (Weezer) Network Action Squad. On behalf of Weezer and JONAS headquarters we thank you in advance for the hard work and dedication you will be putting in to this project.

So yay! Plus, I got a reply from Purdue yesterday, I got readmitted. "Congratulations! You are authorized for re-entry to West Lafayette Campus". So yay for that as well. Christina also had her interview yesterday for Assistant Store Manager and it sounds like it went very well. Pam our District Manager called today at work, not specifically for her, but made it sound like she did really well. So that is good.

Um...what else. I sure was in a blogging mood earlier, but it seems I can't remember half of what I wanted to blog about. Maybe it will come back to me. Not sure.

Oh, I did want to post a funny thing that happened at home. My mom is convinced that this guy Phil likes me. Phil is one of the pastor's kids. He worked with my dad a little bit before he retired as well, so I think my mom got to hear about him more and stuff like that. I can also remember at my dad's retirement party that my mom was like, "Phil is going to be there", and I also remember her saying, he's dating a girl that is "alright" and didn't see what he saw in her. My dad just kind of was like, well he's been dating her for a while. *args, something just happened and half of my blog disappeared. So I am trying to type what I think I had on here. I am a little mad right now that this happened, boo to whatever I just did!* So anyways, we were at the thrift shop after church on Sunday because they wanted to bless it before opening day which was Monday. After we left my mom said to me, "Phil kept looking at you when we were at the thrift shop." She also asked my dad if he and the girl were still dating, my dad didn't know. And my mom continued to say, yeah I saw that he kept sneaking a look at you. Which I was like, um, yeah because my nose was running like krazy during the prayer circle which lasted an eternity and a half! My mom is too cute.

What else, I really honestly can't remember what I was blogging about here besides that I was just looking forward to the summer and for the future and the great things that will happen for my friends and family and hopefully for myself. I am very thankful for everyone who is in my life right now.

Oh yeah, and that I was listening to Pinkerton on the way home from work and was jamming to El Scorcho, my favorite Weezer song. And just for fun, I am putting the lyrics her for all of you to read! Enjoy!

Okay, so I was going to put in the lyrics, but it won't let me separate each line of what I want to paste without double spacing it...AGH!...I don't understand...it has never done this before. *sigh* Blogger is really starting to tee me off.

it's been a long time...

So I am excited, so much new music coming out that I want to get my paws on. New Coldplay, Ben Folds, Foo Fighters, and of course I am always on the lookout for old music that is new music to me.

(I saved my blog at this point, the other day I was in a major mood to blog, but right now I kind of feel like this could be forced, so not too sure how good this blog will be).

Listening to some music though to get me in a blogging mood. (Tegan and Sara right now, Downtown - no it is not a cover of Petula Clark's Downtown=Þ).

Anyways, so what has been going on? Went home this past Saturday and came back on Tuesday afternoon. It was nice. Had a lot of time to just think about stuff that is going on and also to get myself a bit rested up a bit. Not that I lead a busy stressful life, but we all have things that go on in our lives that hold different levels of importance to each of us (hmm, I think that came out the right way, ah well). My parents help me to see different perspectives on things and so does being around great ppl in general. I realized that I am struggling with a few things right now that may seem really minor to any of you who read this, but to me these things have really been bothering me to the point of feeling like, what do I do? How should I respond/act in this situation that I am placed in or even just how do you act when around certain personalities, etc. So I had time this weekend to really think about stuff like that. Anywho, I am sure that wasn't much fun to read.

What fun and exciting things have happened since last blog? I am sure a lot, but for the most part it is the usual, hanging out with friends and just laughing a lot. Also, thinking a lot about this bitchin' vacation that Hillary and I will be taking to Maine (which according to James' sweatshirt is "The Vacation State", HA). Anywho, oh yeah, I have a new crush, well not so much a new crush, but just an old/existing one that has had some light shed on him as of recently. *drum roll* Rivers Cuomo! Of course most of you could prob guess that quite easily. Ross was talking about him the other day and I was like, hmm...maybe I should start stalking him so that he sees me everywhere he goes and since he likes Asians exclusively, I at least have a slight, narrow lead ahead of non-Asians, heh. Anyways. I think I professed to Jenny that I liked him when we were roommates in 2000. But anyways. That is really silly.

Gosh, I feel like this blog just hasn't got the energy behind it that I usually have so I am going to stop now. It doesn't seem good to be typing to just type, because this totally lacks any fun for me.