You Only Live Once

Some people think they're always right
Others are quiet and uptight
Others they seem so very nice nice nice nice nice nice (oh-ho)
Inside they might feel sad and wrong (oh no)

Twenty-nine different attributes
Only seven that you like (uh-oh)
Twenty ways to see the world (oh-ho)
Twenty ways to start a fight (oh-oh)

Oh don't don't don't get out
So I can see the sunshine
I'll be waiting for you, baby
Cause I'm through
Sit me down
Shut me up
I'll calm down
And I'll get along with you

A Man don't notice what he got oh
Women think of that a lot
One thousand ways to please your man (oh-ho)
And neither one requires a plan (I know)

And countless odd religions, too
It doesn't matter which to choose (oh no)
One stubborn way to turn your back (oh-ho)
I guess I've tried and I refuse (oh-ho)

Oh don't don't don't get up
So I can see the sunshine
I'll be waiting for you, baby
Cause I'm through
Sit me down
Shut me up
I'll calm down
And I'll get along with you
Alright

Shut me up
Shut me up
And I'll get along with you

- The Strokes.

Completely Missing the Moment

It is often the case that whatever we are doing, be it sitting, walking, standing, or lying, the mind is frequently disengaged from the immediate reality and is instead absorbed in compulsive conceptualization about the future or past. While we are walking, we think about arriving, and when we arrive, we think about leaving. When we are eating, we think about the dishes and as we do the dishes, we think about watching television. This is a weird way to run a mind. We are not connected with the present situation, but we are always thinking about something else. Too often we are consumed with anxiety and cravings, regrets about the past and anticipation for the future, completely missing the crisp simplicity of the moment. --B. Alan Wallace, Tibetan Buddhism from the Ground Up.

I thought she seemed really familiar...

Okay, so some of you guys know the band Rilo Kiley and their lead singer Jenny Lewis. But do you guys remember that she was in the movie Troop Beverly Hills as Shelley Long and Craig T. Nelson's daughter? YES! I was like, that is totally her and so I looked on imdb.com and sure enough it is in her credits. Also, I looked through it further, and I remember the episode of Golden Girls that she was on. It's the one where she cons Rose and Blanche (maybe Dorothy) into buying her stuff/giving her money, I think. Anywho, there is a fun little tid bit to share.

Not going into too much detail, but I found my motivation that I needed as far as work goes.

Visited with my grandma today, had lunch and then just talked about random things.

Other than that...not much has changed.

Ben Folds in Indy in March and The Strokes in Chicago in April=)

Update

Since last blog, I found out I did not get the promotion that I was hoping for. Just wasn't meant to be I suppose and I need to learn not to get so nervous for an interview. It is nice though that it is done and over. Also, I appreciate everyone who gave me positive reinforcement prior to and after the interview. It really does mean a lot to me=) I get another shot at it in April/May. A lot of things can happen in between now and then, but I'm ready for whatever is to happen...I think. I am getting ready to move stores, also. This is my last week at Sagamore and next week I start at Wabash Landing. I am not for sure what is expected of me. Obviously I am still a shift, but they mentioned molding me for ASM, so I figure that means they will be giving me more responsibilities, like ordering product, etc. I've got to be honest, I am not super motivated right now to learn a bunch of new things. I am more excited to just work in a new environment with all the lessons I've learned from working at Sagamore. Good and bad things, number one though (and this is not to offend anyone) is to separate my friendships from those I work with. I find myself more high strung, one could say anxious, when it seems I have been trying to be everyone's friend and listen to what others have problems with outside of work, etc. I have the friendships that I want from people I have met through work, and I am content with those. With other partners (coworkers) I don't want it to escalate into talking about completely inappropriate topics at work, or people taking offense to me because I don't go out of my way to ask them about their life. I want everyone to be happy and well, but I don't feel like I need to be made a part of someone else's business and vice versa. I feel like that came out a little harsher than how I mean it to...

What else...got back from a meditation course last Sunday. Vistited Ross on my way back home from Illinois. My parents are back home, which I am glad they got back safely.

So ya...I think that is it for now. Everything else to be blogged about is not for the internet...it's called a diary and it's at home=Þ