is this for real?

So I had such a good Thanksgiving I am wondering if it still went as well as I think it did. No one cried, got upset or left early. I think a big part of it was the long talk I had with my parents the night before about everything that is going on with me, my brothers and even them. I had a lot to talk about! A lot about James, too...bleh. It's not that I am bitter about what happened between us, but I am still really hurt by everything and I feel so stupid because I was always willing to do so much to make him happy and I didn't get that in return. And maybe I just expected things out of him that he just couldn't do so I can't be mad/upset with him. I just wanted someone to be kind/nice to me and get excited for me when I was excited. I don't think that is too much to ask for, ya know? Okay I got side-tracked there. Anywho, Thanksgiving day was good, woke up had pancakes and then watched movies (I brought like five to choose from) and then had dinner, didn't stuff my face and then we played euchre. Which I am actually getting decent at or just have good luck with euchre, I'm going to go with luck.

Yesterday was Wilco with Ross and Rebecca...totally great. Wilco is seriously such a great band it's insane! I've already written down my notes for the review I'm going to write, which is more than I ever did with past shows, so I'm excited to finish it by Wednesday/Thursday. I wish I could have spent more time with Ross and Rebecca, but I had to get back to hang out with Jenny and Christina. I sat with Ross a bit though while he finished his sermon this morning and watched sports highlights on ESPN.

Lunch was fun with Christina and Jenny, yay Main Moon. And then we talked for a bit and took lame-o pictures outside. Kind of senior picture style posing in my front yard. That's the nice part about living in the country you can do stupid things in your yard and no one can see you=Þ

Anywho I am off to finish packing and start cleaning...bleh. I can't wait for all of this to be over!

much love!