only in dreams

talk about flustered. There are those people who make you nervous/get your mind all worked up into a tizzy. First it was Beau, he's just so nice when he comes in and is way adorable/cute. I felt flustered when I was talking to him about graduating and such. Dawn said I was fine and that she didn't notice anything, but I always feel like he can tell that I'm nervous. Kim and I joked that he probably just thinks I'm a spaz because that is all he ever sees=Þ It's just annoying that I still get nervous at times when he comes in. I don't really think of him as a crush anymore, but there must still be something in my head that makes me act all lame-o. The other person was James. I never thought I would get that nervous/worried feeling around him again. And he didn't make it awkward in any way, but after the incredibly long argument/discussion I had with him this past weekend (which I never want to repeat) I felt kinda awkward when he came in. It's still hard to get over everything and up until this past weekend I didn't really realize that it was just as hard for James. I always assumed he would get over me first and move on with things. anywho.

not much else going on today. super lazy day after work. I went to the library after work, dropped by Goodwill and got a few books=) and then just sat around most of the evening. I wasn't in a bad mood or anything, just felt kinda blah. Hillary and I exchanged different opinions on "When the Stars Go Blue", Ryan Adams vs. Tim McGraw. I am sure you can guess how that conversation went=Þ

I should be sleeping, but I want to read a little bit. I finally finished The Know-It-All. It was pretty good. And I'm halfway through Chuck Klosterman's Killing Yourself to Live. And working on reading through a bunch of different magazines!

Quick randomness though before I quit blogging. Some of you may know that JoJo's song, "Too Little Too Late" is a guilty pleasure of mine, as well as Katharine McPhee's "Over It". The songs pretty much have the same lyrics and the same melody, etc. So like everything else, I decided to look it up on wikipedia and not surprisingly, both songs were written by the team of Billy Steinberg, Josh Alexander and Ruth-Anne Cunningham. (Steinberg has quite a list of songs to his credit according to wikipedia including "Like a Virgin" and "Eternal Flame")

anywho, seriously going to bed now.

much love!

p.s. I saw this on themodernage.org and loved it


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